17 September 2006 Just for today I shall my make my living honestly. Does this mean I have to work for little or no money? Does it mean that I have to work at something I don't love so I can make money to do the thing I do love? These questions plague me as I work harder towards doing what I love more and moving away from the "rent paying job". Of course, there is the wisdom and guidance that says do whatever job you have well. But what happens when you can no longer do that job well? If I make my living honestly (no fraud, for example) but don't do my job well, am I really making my living honestly? If I discover that the reason why I don't do my job well is because I the job and me no longer suit each other, but continue in the job because it is comfortable and pays good money, am I making my living honestly? That is, am I being true to myself? I know the answer. I even know the solution. But, I have to continue returning to the 6 May entry: Just for today, I will trust. I will not fear. Fear is the root of many things. It is the center between becoming powerful and becoming powerless.
13 June 2006
To trust is to not fear. Just for today I will not fear. What is there to fear when my Ancestors walk with me and are in me. What is there to fear when my Destiny leads me along the path gently towards greatness. The things and people I fear are not greater than my desire to serve Spirit, to answer the call of my egun, to honor my Orisas. They are not greater than the work I am destined to do and accomplish. The question is: Am I ready to have it all? Am I ready to step into the space that is mine? The very same space that I have co-created? Am I ready to accept the things that are mine? The very same things that I asked for and accepted when my Ori chose this life? Am I ready?
6 May 2006
Just for today, I will trust. Just for today. I will trust. I will trust that all I need to see will be made visible. That all I need to hear will be made audible. That all I need to know will be transmitted to me. This is the mantra for all who have entered the space of not knowing. It is the space right after this isn't working any more and I need to do something else; and the space before I knew it would be all right. The space of not knowing, however, seems to have the longest incubation. It is the inside of the womb. But, during times of uncertainty, we imagine and live as if trapped in a 2x2 steel box under water. If we are able to quiet our minds, we can begin our mantra. Just for today, I am willing to surrender my pain and joy to the whole. By surrendering, I am willing to see myself as part of the whole. By seeing myself complete, I can begin to co- create with the Universe and Ancestors the life I need and want. All that I see in the heart of the greatest unknown of all, the ultimate Spirit, is also in me. Just for today, I will not fear (forget everything is already right).
19 March 2006 Just for today I will trust. Sometimes, even when we have been given the signs that everything will be all right, trusting is the hardest thing to do. To trust means removing our attachment to the outcome of a particular situation. To remove the outcome means setting aside our fear of what will happen "if". Often, it means facing internal struggles, day dreams, and conversations we have with ourselves in hopes of avoiding the situation. As if simply day dreaming about a situation will change it when we open our eyes. As a teacher-healer, I too must renew my ability to trust. Most often, the challenge to do so arises after a very long period of walking the path and feeling really good that things are manifesting the way I have been shown. I have, however, come to terms with the fact that the moment I become very good at seeing how things will be is the moment the universe chooses to remind me that even the best psychic in the world doesn't get all the information all the time or in the right order. This isn't about who has the power (we'd be kidding ourselves if we believed that we had none or that we have it all). No, for me it is about the universe helping us to not get so comfortable that we forget what work we agreed to do while in this dimension. For more thoughts on this principle:Oya Acompanha Mim
Just for today I shall make my living honestly. Would it help if we knew exactly what work we are supposed to do? Or do we need to work mindfully until what we were born to do emerges? Is it possible for our destiny to be born from seemingly random events? Or is it our ability to rationalize or integrate those seemingly unconnected events that gives birth to our destiny?
